I have started this post 3 times now. The first time was just rambling, it made no sense. I did try the day after the funeral, maybe that was my mistake.
The second time I thought I had the perfect idea, since I couldn't thank everyone at the funeral, I thought I would do it here, no time limit. By the time I had finished thanking Alisa's family, I had written the longest blog post of my life. I wanted to recognize everyone for their help, and it would be like trying to find you name on the back of you high school graduation t-shirt, you are sure it is there, but finding it may not be worth the trouble. And then, I would probably still leave people out.
So here goes my third attempt. I think I am a little less frazzled, and thanks will just have to come over time.
The last couple days have been busy hanging out with the Johnsons for their family reunion. This was planned months ago, and I am glad they decided to do it, even amidst our current sadness. It has been nice to keep busy and the boys love hanging out with their cousins.
Alisa was the one that kept track of our family. She was diligent at writing a journal, she took tons of pictures, she kept track of everything we did. I was along for the ride. Now it is my responsibility to make sure that when my boys grow up, the history of their lives doesn't stop in 2015. So, I will continue to blog about our life adventure, I may even spend some time on Instagram and Facebook.
There were a few people that asked if I would continue blogging about what happens around here, I don't love to write, but I think it is the best way for me to document our new life.
I am excited (and very scared) to start this new phase of our life. I love my boys, they are a blast to hang out with, and remind me of Alisa. She taught them well, I can't remember the last argument I won against James. My best weapons are "because I said so" or "because I am the dad," pretty weak.
Thanks everyone for your kind words and offers of help. I am sure I am going to need it.